Salaam!
The Hubb’Allah website was launched in February 2024 and since then has gone on many iterations. It turns out things were not as simple as a naive founder thought, and that e-commerce is a complex matter fraught with regulation. Fair enough. What followed was a flurry of preparatory work, including registration, making marketing and business presence materials (letterheads, stamps and such), putting together a team, and researching payment gateways. In the process, the website and work itself has changed. Here are the shifts:
~ The audience is no longer the vague ‘divine feminine’ or spiritual cohorts, especially the people of the West. I am now focusing on values-led leaders and citizens, as defined by my teachings, not the people’s own designs, niches and inclinations.
Due to my strong links with the land that I am in, Pakistani Himalayas, and due to reopening of old life doors through family, I am now more local. I also feel that the entire ecosphere of the Divine Feminine is currently dissociative and dangerous, a thought bubble sustained by the Internet. There, I said it. It is moving deeper into my own teachings and experiences that is showing me how to be more grounded and real. I wish that I had done that sooner and with more conviction on one gathered platform.
~The w a r in G a z a has traumatized Muslims and other caring humans around the world, while also agitating the oppressor apparent. This has shifted my attention and made me requestion my place and propositions.
The Upside is that it has made me more boldly present my concerns for a caring, responsive, and responsible world. I have thereafter done such things as added a Social Responsibility Statement to the website, which is evolutionary since it overtly states my objectives and concerns.
~ I have reverted more strongly to Abrahamic teachings, partly due to political and mostly due to personal reasons. I find within myself a lack of integrity and grounding borne out of my weakness to express and assert myself, that allows people to repeatedly erase and re-write me, which has distorted my energy and person. I cannot seem to reason with anyone at all, or I become reactive or dissociative. I do not want to hide this, I take full ownership. I want to focus on this, before teaching others. By the way, I tend to be extremely hard on myself. In many ways, I have clearly prevailed, which is why I am here. There are some loose ends though, and I am working on those. Financial independence and being free of the clutches of controllers is one such goal; escaping the poor polarity that I have experience between absolute control and absolute abandonment is also one.
~ I am downplaying the Pinterestified economy and society and working to find again a genuine, rooted economy and society. The Himalayas, despite their poverty and social breakdowns and malaise, provide a sound template for social linkages and socioeconomic grids that the world should examine more closely for emulation, minus the negative traits.
! Very importantly, I have defined Hubb’Allah as a Knowledge Universe. This shifts things and pulls me out of the Internet Feminine Universe that I had long been a part of under the influence of some powerful beings in my spiritual community. I am not made for such esotericism, I have decided. My nature is that of a political and extrovert being, and I tend to reach out and pull crowds. I also like to structure and design information and systems, playing in the Masculine. This is something that will unpack going forward. Partly, my experience in the corporate world has much to do with how I am reverting back to correcting the injurious experiences I had, though I don’t want to, but I still do.
I am not entirely comfortable with this shift and feel it may be a response to trauma and loss, but this is where things stand for now. I grieve the fact that the Feminine is not secure, and the Masculine is incoherent and vastly misguided and malignant in the part of the world I am in right now. This is something I am coming to terms with, after several sharp and painful experiences. This has also led me to plan Talks and Transmissions on the role of the Masculine and Feminine, this time defined only as per the exoteric Muslim-Abrahamic traditions.
It seems that events in my personal and political worlds are leading to this change and this questioning of and redesign of the parameters, containers and contents, and this is how it is. Thank you.
